Monday, October 4, 2010


it has never felt so good to blog.
I have been doing homework ever since I got home, which was at 4:30..phew.

Well, readers.  I want to be honest with you, because I feel like I haven't been open in a while. 
 I've been going through a rough patch. I am being suffocated by thoughts of "skinny, skinny, skinny".  it's consuming me.  when is enough, enough?  is there a time when I can find peace within myself?  that's all I want, to find peace with who I am, what I look like, how others perceive me. 

how do you define it?



  1. Peace... I don't really know what peace is anymore. ED destroys all thoughts and moments of peace. It forces our minds to always race. I use to find peace by reading.. so I'm trying to start that up again.
    I hope you're doing okay. <3 Stay strong!

  2. Peace...I define it as not questioning everything you do, everything you say, everything you wear. Simply accepting everything as it is, and as it comes. :)

  3. Ugh. I know the feeling of constant body checking and those stupid skinny thoughts. Remember that when you were freakishly skeletal, you weren't happy at all. The best you can do is be happy at a healthy, beautiful, flourishing weight. Think of how it hurts your body inside. If everyone wore their guts on the outside, those of a healthy, balanced person would be the most beautiful, not those of a starving anorexic. Stay beautiful girl and always push yourself to make healthy choices. I know it's hard to be in a negative place, but it's up to you to work out of it. If you see something triggering, look away.

    Love always,

  4. Wish you all the best and sendig you big hugs and rainbows!!!

  5. hey girl,
    it's never going to be enough. dont fall into that trap of wanting to be just a litttttle smaller. it will only land you in a hospital. catch youself now and pro act.

    im here fi you ever want to chat

  6. you're in my thoughts, emily. you are SO beautiful. i know it sounds cliche but cliches are cliche for a reason: you are enough! try & focus on your strengths.

    loving your outfits in the past few posts, as alllllways! you are truly talented.

    peace = satisfaction with the past and happy anticipation for the future. is that a weird description? it's the first thing that came to mind :P

    all my loooove! ♥

  7. love the 3rd outfit and your sweater in the 1st! come follow xox