Tuesday, April 13, 2010

stress





nope, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth.
I've just been so busy with school, work, and the like.
instead of coming back to you with plenty of pictures..I've been pretty uninspired lately..
that and...well..you know the whole "I don't look good in anything anymore" kind of thing.

I am finding that mornings are turning very stressful.
I fret and fret and fret, and throw on something I've worn 3189237957 times before.
I wish I could sit here and say things are just fine and dandy, and that I've got it all figured out, but I don't.  Those clothes in my closet that I'm dying to wear have made it on my body for a split second and then are taken right back off due to the little voice in my head.  Sure, he is little, but that doesn't stop him from making some sort of an impact.

I am truly sorry that you have to read this redundant ranting of ED stupidness.  but this is my blog and I have problems, so I'm going to write about them.  kapeesh? 

I have friday off this week, it's a teacher work day, so expect to see more of me!  
Did I mention that I get my driver's license tomorrow?!

goodnight
xoxo

15 comments:

  1. Oooooh I'm sorry...you must know you're so beautiful and nothing ED tells you should be taken seriously :)

    Go shopping, you'll feel better. I always say shopping is better than a psychiatrist, lol.

    xoox

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  2. I know that you're feeling down but every time I see your posts with Edward, it makes me smile.

    Go out and treat yourself... I think you need some break. xoxo

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  3. EVERY single thing that you put on looks cute, and to you it might seem like it isn't cute or you don't like the way it looks but i think that your outfits are really creative and always different and always look flattering.
    BTW, tomorrow..you wake up...AND YOUR LIFE WILL BEGIN!

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  4. "kapeesh." love that word. ;) my eighth grade student teacher used to say that all the time, and it turned out she had had an eating disorder in high school, too, which she told me over email about a year later. (we kept in touch, obviously pretty close... she actually taught sixth grade but i was her assistant in three classes, and she was really young. anyways.) i saw her once more out of school after i'd put on about thirty five pounds, but i still looked like death and she actually cried to see me. geez, and i thought i was doing better! wake up call!!! i wish she could see me now. anyway, all that from "kapeesh." what a flood of memories! i really hope your body image improves, girl, because you are stunningly gorgeous on the inside and beautiful on the outside too, just far too skinny looking, and i sure wish ed would shut up so you could have an easier time of it! i love you and please stay well. remember how many people care so deeply for you, ed not included. <3

    lucie

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  5. I've been wearing the same outfits over and over again too. :/ At least yours are cute! And regardless what ED is trying to say, you still look absolutely gorgeous and fabulous.

    GOOD LUCK GETTING YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE!! You have to take a test to get it right? I feel so dumb for asking that but I know that getting your license in the States is different then here in Canada.

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  6. congrats on the drivers lic!!!!!!!

    the first 3 mos i had mine, i got 3 speeding tix :) just dont go as wild as i did :)

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  7. Hi, I just found your blog, and I love it.
    (: smile.

    xx Amy

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  8. oh Emily -- i know the feeling. it's hard. but, you look amazing and it's all completely in your head. seriously, you are STUNNING.

    eek congrats on the lisence! hope you do better than i did on your test ;D

    <3

    http://www.prettytimepiece.org

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  9. Ahh yes, I have that sometimes, I keep changing for hours and normally end up with the first outfit (still not happy, but time is running out). But driver's licence... How cool is that?!

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  10. OU Liscense. exciting. and lucky u have friday off. SO jealous :) cute outfit


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  11. hi lovely,
    thank you ( as always) for the comment...

    i definitely relate to how you're feeling... maybe it's just a good excuse to buy new clothes, though? it's hard, but we gotta fight and try and find the good in it all <3

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  12. It is so not stupid, Emily. I find myself facing the very same problems some mornings. Where you think that you look blah in everything, then toss on something baggy and scoot out the door, hiding your body as much as possible. It's commonplace for recovery; don't let it get you down.

    And yayay! Congratulations for getting your driver's license today. I still don't have mine, so you're way ahead fo the curve!! :)

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  13. Congratulations on the license! That's a big deal!
    You know what you should do? This Friday go shopping! But if the idea for shopping for clothes doesn't appeal to you right now, go shopping for something else. No, not furniture or shoes or accesories. Go shopping for inspiration!

    Spend the day outside in the gorgeous weather! Take pictures with your mothers fantastic camera and enjoy your day!
    Or if you are looking for more inspiration watch the documentary "Between the Folds"
    It's a documentary about paper folding (origami) and I know it sounds kind of lame, but I watched it last Friday and was so inspired by it I almost burst into tears!

    Don't let E.D. get into your head! Drown him out with beautiful imagery and inspiring places!

    Colleen

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  14. Yay Congrats on the DL!!!! Enjoy it.

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  15. Kapeesh! :-)

    I've problems too ... huh..

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    Kaya

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