Monday, February 8, 2010

crutch

Hola friends!  How's Monday treatin' ya?  Well in case you haven't heard - the snow isn't budging, therefore I have no school today and tomorrow. I honestly haven't left the house since Thursday, so I'm due for an outing later today.

alright, I'm going to touch on a subject that's been bothering me lately. 
Don't get me wrong, my ED has kept me back from many things in the past year or so, but I feel like I blame too much on it.  I feel as if it has become my 'crutch' if you will.  I don't want to go on in my life bringing up my ED whenever I have made a mistake or pissed somebody off as an excuse.  I am only human and I'm bound to do things wrong, regardless of being berated by ED everyday.

Has anyone ever felt this way? 
 How do you balance a life of normalcy while still keeping your ED days a part of you?

Yes, this disease has made me the person I am today, but I don't want it to be a cover up for all my faults.  It's a disease, not an excuse.



On a lighter note..

I am so sorry my dear bloggies.  I have failed you once again.  Can you remember the last time I had a...

Weekly Crave
(that's okay, neither can I.)

So I'd never thought I'd see the day where I fell in love with something that I thought was totally and utterly ridiculous to me at first. BUT, we all change our minds, right?  And a onesie is perfectly fine when it's the most adorable onesie around, right?  Okay I am guessing that you answered "yes" to the aforementioned questions.  Without further ado, I give you my newest crave...


This Dolce Vita Cornelia Romper  from Free People is the perfect garment for spring time -- and without a doubt it's the warm weather that's on my mind.  Though the $148 price tag is well out of my range, there is hope for a Forever 21 look alike somewhere :)

I also love this $98 We the Free Bookworm Romper...


Oh if money were no object...
Which brings me to wrap up this post with some questions for you all.

1. How do you balance a life of normalcy while still keeping your ED days a part of you?

2. How do you feel about rompers?  speak your mind.

3. If money were no object, what would be the first thing you would buy?

have a great Monday loves!
xoxo

thanks to we heart it and google for the pictures.

14 comments:

  1. Normalcy is hard when you are in the midst of ED, but I try to tell myself moderation. If I'm feeling like restricting or having bad thoughts, I always tell myself 'in an hour, i can't think like this..i have to say something positive" It speaks louder if you keep going each day, rather than giving up. Enjoy the snow...I know you got like 30 something inches..it's insane..sorta wish I was in nova with my parents! Keep smiling cause you deserve it!

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  2. I love rompers Emily, in fact I'm planning my spring and summer wardrobe around them.

    If money is not an issue, I would buy me a Hermes Birkin bag NOW. Hahaha! I'm such a baghag.

    Have fun in the snow sweetie! xoxo

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  3. I LOVE rompers. I can't wait until summer to wear one! I wasn't sure if I liked them at first, but they have definitely grown on me. I especially love that Dolce Vita Cornelia romper...it's so cute!

    Love your blog!

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  4. i agree, it's far too easy to blame every mistake/bad feeling/avoidance maneuver on an ED. in many cases it's true, there is ED influence, but at the same time the more we allow ED to take over and "cause" those issues, the less power we have to live our lives! i say give "credit" where credit is due, but instead of blaming our EDs all the time we should look at the underlying reasons/motivations why we turned to ED behaviors to cope in the first place

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  5. i totally know what you mean about the ed crutch, i use it sometimes too...i'm with you mistakes happen its a part of being human, totally acceptable.
    okay so i used to be totally totally against rompers but now i really want one, i almost bought one at express this past summer. i'm taking the plunge for sure this spring :)
    if money were no object i would buy a car & a fabulous purse :)
    happy monday snow bunny!
    xoxo

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  6. 1) I put things into perspective. No one is perfect. We have to take the good with the bad. And that includes admitting to ourselves that not everything can be attributed to ED. We have to admit our mistakes - even if only to ourselves. :)

    2) I have been searching for the perfect romper for weeks now - it has thus far evaded me; but I am still hopeful!!

    3) A penthouse on Park Avenue or a brownstone in Park Slope. I have expensive tastes. :)

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  7. 1) i know what you mean- when my therapist/family/boyfriend etc. say they understand because of my ed, i get kind of annoyed because im like 'no, it is me! dont let it be ok just becuaes i have a disorder' but i realize that some things really are because of my disorder, u know?
    2) idk how i feel about rompers!
    3) hmm wow that is a hard question- probably a beach house!!

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  8. Oh, Emily, I understand this too well. ED confuses your feelings and thoughts, and in doing so you can't differentiate between what you don't want and what ED doesn't want, therefore using ED's excuses as your excuses.
    You're right. This is an illness, not an excuse. The more we depend on it, the longer it will stick around!

    1)I honestly don't know. I feel like they're melded into one, in some ways. I go through each of my days 'not knowing', hoping.
    2) I think they're cute, but I would look so ridiculous in one!
    3) A plane ticket OUT OF HERE. And a huge mansion to drive up to in my really flashy, fast car. ;)

    Dare to dream.

    LOVE,
    Eleanor.xo

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  9. I'm so jealous of your snow! where I live it's just this blah, in between weather that's not warm or cold.
    1) As for an ED, I don't have one...
    2) I've seen some rompers that are pretty cool, but I have no clue where I'd wear one if I had one and I don't think I'd look very good in one
    3) Oh where to start!! Well, first I'd have to donate some of it to like haiti or something and then I'd go crazy at anthropologie, urban outfitters and JCrew.
    ~Dana
    dailydoseofdana.tumblr.com

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  10. I love that you did a romper post!! I just did a post about overalls! YOu know what they say about great minds...

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  11. ahhhh love rompers! and a life of normalcy, i don't believe, is possible with ED. he's just gotta go...such a nuisance!
    and i would definitely buy a plane ticket to tokyo. its my dream to visit there! :]
    love you!

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  12. I don't feel like I use my ED as a crutch. I do feel, however, that those around me think it's not a big deal anymore, I've gained some weight, I eat, I'm cured. I'm far from cured, though, mentally, and it's difficult.
    And I like some rompers, but not all! I'm actually getting a realllly adorable polka-dotted one for my birthday (:
    I would buy a brand-new yellow Ford Mustang, cobra style. Or a big old house in this one neighborhood here. -Kylee

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  13. & I would be the awesome one, who forgets to change the comment settings.

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  14. I LOVE ROMPERS!! i saw one at target, but my mom was rushing me so I couldn't try it on >:( Hopefully I'll get the chance to go back though.

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