Monday, December 21, 2009

let it snow

It was so nice to be able to wake up this morning and NOT have to go to school.  Snow is a blessing – even when it messes up my shopping schedule.


For the next few days I plan on getting ready for Christmas – buying the last minute gifts, helping my mom grocery shop, and perhaps participating in a cookie baking extravaganza with mi madre.  Any cookie recipe suggestions?  We are kinda at a loss about what cookies to bake.


Lately I’ve been a bit more on edge, you could say.  I have been comparing myself with other girls in terms of looks a lot recently.  Or I have been nit-picking little things that are changing in my appearance.  I know, I know…it’s not ME, it’s ED – but still, I hate not being happy with myself…I’m tired of always having something that I would change about myself.  I want to embrace myself no matter how I look.  Change is hard, really hard.

Well, I’m one pooped girl.   I think I’m calling it a night pretty soon – don’t judge the old lady trapped in a 15-year-olds body :)



  1. I highly recommend
    but I just got done whipping up Martha Stewarts Chewy Molasses Cookies and they are heavenly! Just remember...Don't leave them in for more than 10 minutes! they don't look done when you take them out, but trust me, they ARE!

  2. Oooh enjoy your time off! And don't compare yourself to other ppl when you do that you are ignoring what makes you fabulous... and trust me, there is SO much that makes you fabulous! Plus you are beyond gorgeous and stylish, too :)

  3. girl enjoy your break! focus on yourself because you are awesome :)

  4. change is hard :(
    But embrace each day and moment girly. You are worth it !
    Make thumbprint cookies!!! (my favorite ) ;-)

  5. As an old lady trapped in a 16 year old's body, I can relate to you on every level.
    Comparisons are inescapable. I've realized that everyone, no matter what you look like, who you are, where you're from, what you do - you compare yourself. But I've also realized that comparing yourself to someone else is... Well, it doesn't make sense. Because you are you, and they are them, and no amount of comparing will ever change that.
    Yes, change. It's horrible. But also a blessing. But you will always be Emily, beautiful Emily. And you will always be loved.

    Eleanor. xo

  6. I'm in mood for some baking too!

    I don't do 'Christmas' cookies, though...too much work, lol. My sister requested Peanut butter chocolate chip cookies, I'm currently searching for a reliable recipe :)

    If they are good, I'll give you the recipe if you want!

    Happy holidays

  7. Oh gosh, I can relate to your last paragraph so much... ED hates seeing changes of any kind, especially if they are towards the direction of health (and therefore leaving him behind). Just keep reminding yourself that these changes are going to be what enables you to live your life to the fullest - to persue your career in fashion, to start a beautiful family of your own, etc etc.

    As for the Christmas baking - make shortbread! I think this is an english tradition but they are delish. I can give you a great recipe if you want :)

    Keep smiling you gorgeous girl <3

    Hannahbanana xo

  8. Hahaha! Don't just the old lady trapped in a 15-y/o body... you made me laugh Emily. Just enjoy the holidays.

    You are a beautiful person inside and out. Trust me, I can feel it. Remember, I'm a mom.

  9. change is hard, so incredibly hard.
    you are beautiful being you, Ed may say otherwise but he lies.
    as for the baking i need to pick out a recipe as well, hmm i'm thinking of checking out it's great :)
    enjoy the break dear, thinking of you!

  10. Shortbread is always nice around this time of year :) Although I have never actually baked them myself XD...

    Sorry to hear that you are feeling a little down on yourself - Try to remember that you are truly a beautiful person no matter how you look on the outside (which is pretty gorgeous as well if I do say so myself!)

    Enjoy the happy happy holidays!

  11. Ahh that picture describes how I felt Saturday--to a TEE!

    Enjoy the snow and I hear ya on the whole old lady trapped in a young body thing-- baaaleaveee me, hehe.

    Thank you for your comments and support. I genuinely appreciate and value your genuine words.

    Stay strong, stay positive- it's the most wonderful time of the year. And if it's not, make it one.
    love ya bec xo

  12. Hey sorry to hear you've been having a rough time. I can relate to feeling like a grandma too, been going to bed sooo early! Hope you found a cookie recipe that looks good to ya...I'm in the mood to bake oatmeal-cranberry ones. I use a recipe from the Quaker oatmeal box i found years ago, but i'm sure they have posted online too.

  13. Oh please, I have been an old lady trapped in a young person's body for far too many years - sometimes I hit the hay before 8:30; tres sad!!

    The comparisons and nit-picking thing can definitely be a problem when your body starts moving away from ED - physically, that is. You definitely need to do something to take your mind off of the physical you. Read a book, watch TV, hang out with friends. I find that the more time I'm trapped with my own thoughts, the more I obsess over my body. :/

  14. You are a brilliantly unique & gorgeous girl. Don't second guess yourself... I'm guilty of comparing myself with other girls, but then I ask myself "What the hell am I doing?"...

    You ARE perfectly true, perfectly you! Never forget.

  15. so jealous you had a snow day girlie :) that is always the BEST feeling when you wake up!! xo.