Monday, October 12, 2009

a second chance

Just another Monday..

with no school :) So technically it feels like Sunday…and that means I’ll be screwed up on my days all week!

Well, tomorrow is the start of spirit week.  And guess what the first spirit day is?  Extreme Weather Day.  Yes, I know, definitely not your typical spirit day you’d find at any given high school, but I’m lucky enough to get to go to one that has wonderful ideas such as this.  What am I going to dress up like?  I haven’t a clue.  Believe it or not, I don’t own rain boots, which is odd considering the shoe collection I have managed up until now. I might not dress up tomorrow – but I’ve got BIG plans for the other days :)

I love the whole idea of high school homecoming tradition, but it feels like this is the first year I get to really enjoy it.  When I look back on where I was this time last year, in a state of denial, I can see how much I didn’t live special occasions like hc up to full potential.  I barely went out, I barely did ANYTHING.  My whole world revolved around ED and his needs.  I distinctly remember how I didn’t have anyone to go to homecoming with literally a couple days before.  It was horrible, I felt alone and forgotten.  Then, I finally got in a group to go with, and felt even more alone and forgotten.  I didn’t know what do with myself around other people I used to know, I felt lost and awkward within that circle of friends.  And at dinner, it was even worse.  Everyone had their “go-to” person, but there I was, at a table with only three people, when there was at least fifteen people in the group.  They were all having a great time, while I just sat there trying to force the pasta (FEAR FOOD) down my throat with remorse.  Needless to say, it was an awful first impression of homecoming.  Which is exactly why I am going to do everything within my power to make this time around amazing. Where I feel included, loved, and happy just to be a normal high schooler, oblivious of all my problems just for a few hours. 

Alright, enough serious stuff..

Before I head off to bed I wanted to say how glad I am that all of you enjoyed my new feature!  I’m diggin it too :)

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some positive reinforcement

sleep tight!

5 comments:

  1. And here's another one of my favorite quotes: don't follow another's path... go instead where there is no path but don't forget to leave a trail.

    Hold your head up high girl, you will go places. Hugs!

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  2. I am so glad that you are taking another go at Homecoming, Emily. I think you should completely put last year's disaster out of your mind, and go in this year as if it's your first time to experience something so thrilling. Are you in a group again this year? Please give us more details - I've decided that I'm going to attend Homecoming vicariously through you as I have never been! :)

    By the way, j'adore that illustration and quote - so true! :)

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  3. Your going to have a wonderful time at your homecoming Emily! Dont let ED ruin this for you. You deserve to enjoy the experience to the full, just like every other girl in your year.
    xoxo Hannah

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  4. you have come so far in the past year sweetheart and I have no doubt that this homecoming will be one to remember :) You deserve these memories! High school only comes once in a life time - embrace it! I'd switch places with you in a second if I could!!

    lots and lots of love!

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  5. This year is gonna be perfect! I just know it! It will truly be a night to remember :)

    I wish you the best time at your Homecoming this year, girl! Keep us posted and don't forget to post a photo of that gorgeous homecoming dress :)

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