Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Reviewing Recovery

Hello all!

here's my look for today...
- purple v-neck
- cardigan
- jean shorts
- moccasins

after wearing those shoes yesterday, I just wanted to be comfortable!  And this outfit did the trick :]

Man, I don't know about you guys, but I'm crazy tired.  It's amazing how a school day can drain you and make you feel incredibly gross.  When I get home from school, I immediately change my clothes and wash my face, I feel like the minute I walk into school stress is basically oozing out of my pores!  Okay..yeah that was a little gross, but it is so true.

So for this post I really want to talk about what feelings I associate my recovery with.  For the most part, I feel as though recovery comes with feelings of health and optimism, but on the other hand I do, of course, have negative feelings.  When I think about recovery, there is no filter, therefore I picture my old self and words like fat or gross pop into my head.  It is when those words appear, that I get extremely scared of what it will be like.  Scared because I have to face one of my biggest fears -- the unknown.  With this, I'd like to ask... While you were/are traveling down this road, what positive and negative feelings did/do you have that either motivated recovery or set you back?

Alright well I'm out..
gotta get busy with what do ya know? HOMEWORK.

have a great evening!

4 comments:

  1. It's normal to have a fear of the unknown. But you have to have faith that everything will be alright. Use the power of creative visualization. Visualize all positive outcomes and they will be realized.

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  2. You've made me want a pair of moccasins! :)

    Let's see...when I first started my recovery, I had severe anxiety/panic attacks whenever I ate - I was unable to catch my breath, and felt as if I was suffocating. In my mind, I could feel the fat growing on me with every piece of food I put in my mouth. This actually set me back, because then I began purging for a few months. I finally overcame that ED phase, but it was through restricting again. With me, recovery has been a nonstop merry-go-round of ups and downs - you get caught up in it all. Being able to go out and have fun with my friends - even to just get ice cream - was a positive thing in assisting with my recovery. :)

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  3. Your outfit is cute. I think you just have to try your best to stay positive! I love your moccasins!

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  4. Recovery for me feels..well, like you said, plunging into the unknown. I feel like if I stop restricting and purging, I'll go back to what I was.. and that makes me very afraid. I'm at a normal weight now, so my mind tells me if I eat normal, I will be overweight. But I have to remember to tell myself that I'm beautiful the way I am, even though I don't believe it. I hope that at some point, I'll start to believe it. :]

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