Monday, August 17, 2009

Motivation is Key.

Hey there!
back again..kinda blogger obsessed.

As school approaches my mind has been reeling, because that's when reality comes into play. There are so many things that I want to do and get involved in, but those opportunities have been depleted..for the time being..thanks to a wonderful guy named ED. I can't stop thinking about how it would feel to just go outside and start running without worrying about my heart, or try kickboxing without constantly thinking about my fragile bones, or most importantly playing soccer with a highschool jersey on under the stadium lights. It scares me to think of let alone everything I've already missed out on my freshman year, but what about the rest of my high school experience? Am I going to be the girl who stayed home while everyone was out having fun and being regular, active teenagers?

I can tell you one thing -- I don't want to be that girl.

Right now soccer is my big motivator, being the manager is all good, but not when you feel like you should be on the team.

When you are feeling low, whats your main motivator?

Just a few thoughts
post more soon :]


  1. Emily,
    You will have a great year! I'm sure you will find ways to be active without compromising your health! Just be creative and adventerous and think outside the box! Getting back to the things you enjoy can be your big motivator help yourself get those strong bones and heart healthier again.

    But I know how you feel! I just had 2 spine surgeries after suffering a year of excrutiating back pain in which I couldn't do ANYTHING physical - walk, stand, shop, cook, etc. My life came to a complete stop - I couldn't even make it to the mall! After several months of non-stop tears and frustration, I learned to focus on what I COULD do and what I could control rather than what I couldn't do or couldnt control! I realized that I choose to be be completely miserable or happy in spite the pain. Now that I'm recovering from the surgery and getting my life back, I take pleasure in the little steps of progress and finding new ways to have fun!

    I'll be saying lots of prayers your way!

  2. my motivation is my future -- ED has robbed me of too many experiences and deprived me of my youth -- i will not let him do that effect my future in the same way ... deprive me of having a happy and healthy family and living my life the way i was intended to live it. I have no doubt that you will be able to stay motivated and have a great school year! stay positive and keep fighting, girl!

  3. My motivation is running and my family.
    I love being able to run for a long time without being scared of falling dead on the floor from a cardiac arrest. When ED was at her strong point, even running at times was hard. I wanted to be faster, stronger, for my passion of running. I knew conquering ED would get me there.
    And my mom. She was the only one that had my back during those hard times, when everyone including the rest of my family was making fun of me. She was the only one that would end the day by telling me that I can make it through this. If it weren't for her, I'd probably wouldn't be here. (Not trying to sound dramatic, but its true.)

    Let your motivation be your drive hun, you'll reach recovery in no time!