Saturday, August 29, 2009


This upcoming school year I am challenging myself...
changin up my style and vamping up my fashion sense.
With this challenge comes my new and first daily!

I am going to post what I wear on the blog and create my very own lookbook..
hopefully the blog will be my incentive to be creative in my outfits and try to use all my clothes to their full potential. Your feedback, opinions, suggestions, or comments would be great!

So starting September 8th the Secret Doors Lookbook will make its debut!

also I am happy to say that things are still going well in my progress.. but I am feeling the punch a little bit right now in regards to the food intake. I feel like I am eating everything in sight and can't control myself. This should be a good thing right? But I feel like a garbage disposal..and ED is screaming right now telling me I should start restricting again. I don't want to end up like I used to be -- that's the part that really frightens me. Just because it's in front of me doesn't mean I have to eat it. Like this morning I had two donuts..last week that would have been UNHEARD of..I don't want to go from one extreme to another and that's what it feels like I'm doing. I am still really attatched to the body I have now and I don't know how I will deal with change. AH I HATE THIS.

however the friend situation is going great :] Last night I had some girls sleepover and it was really nice to just be with people other than my family, therapist, or doctor (no offense..still love you all) You never know how much you like something until it is gone. I remember when there was a point when I thought all I ever needed was ED, that I was just fine without anybody..and then I ended up just being alone and unhappy. Another lesson learned...

well today is a mystery..don't know what I'm doing yet
I hope the sun eventually makes its way out!
but in the meantime I'm gonna go figure my plans out...
enjoy your day!

p.s. Thank you so much Cafe Fashionista for the awesome giveaway, I can't wait to get my new tote!


  1. Hey Emily-
    Thanks for leaving such a nice comment on my blog. I appreciate it! I am with you on revamping my style for fall. New beginnings!

  2. aw Emily! i think you are taking a very positive direction for yourself. It warms my hear to hear your so happy.. and bravo for hanging out with your girlfriends last night! I hope you had an amazing time :)

  3. I enjoyed reading your previous posts and can't help glancing at your profile... you're just 15 yet you write so well. Looking forward to your lookbook. And I hope you won't get tired of writing once the lookbook is up.

  4. I'm thrilled for September 8th. You are destined to have the greatest Lookbook ever!

    At the very early stages of recovery, you will feel insatiable - I know I did. The best thing to do is stick with foods that will help you get stronger - egg whites, meats (unless you're a vegetarian), beans, fruits, vegetables. You're learning to re-feed (almost like a baby learning to eat again). I started with canned pears. I ate them all the time for the first few weeks - they were easy to digest, healthy, and just sweet enough to satisfy any sugar cravings. I'm so proud of you, Emily. Stay strong! :)